Where Does The Time Go?

So much has happened since the last time I updated. My summer was taken over by the incessent push of two online classes condensed into a shorter amount of time. I feel as if I've missed some of the most important moments of my babies' lives but at the same time, I know that in the end this will help us all to have a somewhat better life. And that's what makes our snuggles even more special and priceless than they already are. The twins are growing so fast and are now 8 months old! I remember yelling at my husband for picking out the wrong pants for me to wear to rush into the hospital on Christmas Eve morning and then hearing the tiny cries of the most precious babies. And now I look at them. Where 8 months ago, neither had hair, teeth or chubby legs, all that has changed; well for Seth anyway. He's rocking the blonde hair and two goober teeth. And those legs, oh his legs! Such little chunks haha. Lucia on the other hand is still looking like an old man with no hair or teeth. Poor little princess :-( But oh, when she smiles she lights up the world. They both do. No matter what's happening, when they smile and their eyes sparkle, you can't help but smile and hold them that much tighter. They're moving along the floor now so no more relaxing for Mommy and Daddy. Seth pulls himself along while Lucia has a motor in her butt that propels her faster than we could have ever imagined. Lucia is fairly quiet. Oh, she babbles and coos and laughs when you get lucky, but overall she is content with observing the world in which she now inhabits. This, however, cannot be said of the Man Child. No, Seth doesn't care to observe. Instead, he feels the need to be heard and be heard again and again. No longer does he have the quiet voice of the child I knew the first week of Christmas last year. No, now each scream tries to top the one before. And he shows no discrimination. Instead, he fills the world with noise, happy not upset screaming, at the house, at the grocery store, at church, especially during the prayers...makes no real difference to him. His blue eyes sparkle like ice on a lake and they remind me so much of my grandmother who passed away only two weeks before their birth. He also still has his Angel Kiss that I'm convinced she gave her little Gene. And when all is said and done, it's time for bed ~ one of my favorite and worst parts of the day. The worst, in some ways, is that while the babies love to play with Daddy during the day, it's Mommy's arms that they want to fall asleep in. Well, they haven't grasped the concept that Mommy can only snuggle one to sleep at a time. We've tried it all together, but they push each other too much for prime real estate, that it just doesn't happen. So while it's hard to hear the other one upset and the fact that from 8-10 I can do absolutely nothing else, I also love it. We rock in the chair, hum soft lullabies and watch as their eyes drift closed. With a tender kiss and an "I love you," I lay each one down in their cribs, say the "Now I lay me down" prayer, whipser my love again and leave their room for the night. And I know that someday they'll be too big for me to rock in my arms like that, but I never want that day to come. I love the fact that I'm so loved and needed by these miraculous blessings. That God loves me enough to entrust Justin and I with the caring of his children. My constant prayer is that we can show them the right way to live and how to bless His name in everything they do.

Watching them change

Our beautiful cousin demand that I share the happenings of this crazy life with you all this week so here it goes.
It’s been about 5 weeks since we were blessed with the arrival of our twins and I’m loving every minute of it. Well, ok. Maybe those times during the dead of night when only weirdos and ax-wielding maniacs are up, but yet I still set with my loves, does and they’re perfect and I know that even in those late nights/early mornings that I am indeed blessed and take joy in knowing that. Schoolwork has been harder because even though I am able to stay home all day and work on it, Seth and Lucia come first. Besides, I much rather gaze at my lil ones than rate the site based on ITERS or write running records. Justin has been helping out with all that though. We love having him home with us all day now! We enjoy just setting here looking at our little blessings.
Lucia is continuing to show her diva attitude. While neither believe they should ever be put down for more than a second, she makes her wishes known loud and clear. It’s fun to watch her start to get upset because her brows come together and her bottom lip slowly juts out before the crying begins. It’s during this time most people have commented that she looks like me. Huh, doesn’t sound like the nicest comment but sadly I can see it as well ;-) She sleeps with her mouth open like a little fly-catcher. Right now Lucia has dark slate colored eyes that take in the world around her. I wonder if she’ll have dark eyes like mine. She started to hold her head up before Seth and loves to rock out with Daddy. She is truly his angel.
Seth’s personality is revealing itself more. He is awake more now and just stares with his giant ice blue eyes. He’s going to need to grow into those suckers lol. When he cries he revs up from a couple little spurts to full-blown freak out. He has more hair than Lucia but it’s around the back of his head like Grandpa J Seth has gotten so much bigger than Lucia and you can feel it the most when rocking him. He makes me laugh more than anyone else by just looking at his faces. Oh my little man…
We love watching these two and seeing how their personalities are emerging. They’re just so different that you can’t help but be amazed. I’m really not wanting to return to work. I’m going to miss spending my days with two of the loves of my life. These days are going so quickly that I can’t imagine what the future holds.

Our Perfect Christmas Presents

I really let this blog go :-( Well, now I have a different incentive to keep it up. Instead of keeping everybody up to date on what's going on inside my growing tummy I can regale you all of the miracles that are currently sleeping in my livingroom. So while my last post was at 20 weeks, I am now a week and a half past being pregnant and it's taking a bit of time to adjust. I look at my body and can't believe that what once was a large stomach has shrunk back to smaller than before I even got pregnant. I find myself running my hands over my stomach and feeling a small ache that there are no longer little feet inside my womb kicking and moving about. But then I look at the bassinets and realize that those subtle movements have been replaced by something so much better.

Now, we had set up a c-section for the 31st, which would've been 37 weeks (though the dr. insisted it was really 38). We were told no eating after midnight...13 hrs. of no eating or drinking for me?! Crazy! Other than that, however, things seemed good. Justin went to work that night (the 23rd) and when he came home brought me some fries. I absently questioned what would happen if someone had to get a c-sec. but had eaten beforehand. I soon found out...That night, at a quarter til midnight, I was awoken when my water broke. Rushing to the hospital, we were told that I was 4cms. and could not travel the hour to the hospital we wanted to deliver at so we were stuck here. Almost 2 hours, very little pain and a c-section later, we welcomed our daughter (Lucia) and son (Seth) on Christmas Eve morning. Both sets of parents were there to welcome our new arrivals as well. At 36 weeks I was nervous about what their health would be. That was our main reason for wanting to deliver at a different hospital because there was a NICU there. However, each baby looked completely healthy. The only problem was that they were small; 4.8 and 4.11. Other than that, God had blessed us with beautiful, healthy babies.

And now we're home. We did have to stay a week in the hospital to get them to gain some weight since they lost the customary 10% of their weight just like singleton babies. But on the 31st, the day of our schedule surgery, the entire family was discharged to spend New Year's Eve at home. People ask if it is easy or challenging for us. Well, without ever having known what it's been like with one I can't answer either way. I know that there are times that it's difficult and definately will be when Justin goes back to work next week but for now I can at least say that we're both still going strong and are feeling emotions we've never felt before. The love we have for these little ones is amazing. I just want to set and hold them. I want to see them grow because I know that as they get older they're a lot of fun, their personalities come out more and I will be able to be the friend of my chidren. However, there's a part of me that wishes they will stay this small forever; just so I can hold them in my arms, snuggle them and kiss their little noses.

And now this entry comes to a close. While the little ones are still sleeping, I need to find my own supper and get theirs ready. I'm excited to see where this blog is going to go and grow with my children. I hope that you're as excited as I am.